deathrattleashram

Mike Rinta w/ Sly and the Family Stone.

2011-12-18T02:49:00.000-08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=tCPcJkd-gJc
My friend Mike rinta On Trombone.

2011-09-02T16:32:00.001-07:00

From Jeannine Gendar: There's a vulture cartoon with a punch line that goes, "Mom, does anything die and become dessert?"

2011-09-02T15:31:00.001-07:00

"Life's journey is not to arrive at the grave safely in a well preserved body, but rather skid in sideways, totally worn out, shouting....Holy Cow! What a Ride!"
Hunter S. Thompson

Absalom

2011-07-03T13:02:00.001-07:00

The foundation of all mental illness, is the unwillingness to experience legitimate suffering.

2011-06-21T22:49:00.001-07:00

Sometimes I wonder…the rest of the time I know.~~Ghalli Gi~~

Thoughts

2011-06-19T12:45:00.001-07:00

If life appears to come up short, you haven't waited long enough. In time, the fortunate realize the folly of their expectations.

2010-12-06T16:49:00.001-08:00

Aneed objectified is a need met.Ghalli Gi

Thoreau

2010-08-25T13:18:00.001-07:00

"Do not be too moral. You may cheat yourself out of much life. Aim above morality. Be not simply good; be good for something."~~Henry David Thoreau~~(He knew)

enlighten-up!!

2010-08-25T10:13:00.001-07:00

‎"Seeking perfect total enlightenment is like looking for a flashlight when all you need the flashlight for is to find your flashlight."

incrementals

2010-08-19T15:56:00.000-07:00

"Give 'em an inch, and they will realize they can get anything they want, incrementally."~~the easier softer way~~

There is enough

2010-08-19T15:39:00.001-07:00

Insanity is thinking this moment is not enough. We are standing on the edge of time, as it moves from the present to the past. There is no future. Most of us spend our time rearranging that which we have been given, to create a better future. In that busy-ness, we miss the blessing of being here now. Be at peace. Trust that there is enough. Begin sharing.~~Ghalli Gi~~

change/ results

2010-08-17T22:59:00.001-07:00

"Expect change and you will see results, expect results and you will see change."

~~Ghalli Gi~~

Great Quote

2010-08-07T17:50:00.001-07:00

"If I were any more real, I'd be fictional"~~Anita Bonghit~~

multi-faceted or mentally fractured

2010-08-07T14:04:00.000-07:00

I'm mostly all over the place, but not in an unfocused way. I see and feel a variety of ways about most subjects. I used to think I was wishy-washy, but really its just that there are many viewpoints on any question, and I simply see more than one.
I thought of a cut diamond. How grandiose, right? But to go on, a diamond refracts a number of colors, some all at once, depending which facet is struck by light, and from which angle. It still remains a single diamond, and it still remains a single issue, refracting from a single brain. It all depends on how it struck me, what angle it came at me from, this time. I am happy I see the light. I hope the colors are bright, varied and captivating. Still, a diamond cut by a masters' hand will always do what it is designed to do as long as there is light. Me too.

The Flood Syndrome

2010-08-06T12:42:00.000-07:00

     I'm seeing this immigration issue like a flood. The water is rising, irrevocably. People have lived with a complacent trust that the small surges would be controlled at the dam, the Federal Government. Now, here comes the rapidly rising level of immigrants, wiping out whole communities of staid thought. People are sandbagging with lawsuits, and new laws. They are railing at the govenment's failure to close the floodgates. They are inundated regardless.
     Dams are subject to pressure. when there is too much pressure behind to dam, the floodgates have to be opened to protect the dam. This leads me to question where the pressure is originating. Where is the pressure to open the floodgates coming from? What kind of pressure is so dangerous that it supercedes the inevitable downstream catastrophe? is it geo-political? Is it some kind of global-socio-tectonic shift? I suspect I do not know enough to draw a cogent conclusion, but I got my 'spicions.
     Isn't it curious though, that, with the exception of Isreal, nobody is immigrating to the Middle East, or Africa, or Mexico? At least not in any comparable numbers with what's going on in England, France, Germany, the U.S.? "There's somethin' happenin' here, and what it is ain't exactly clear", but it tends to make me uneasy. The fact that the last four administrations have bowed to this "pressure" gives me more than mere pause. The Government seems willing to sacrifice the entire base, but to what end? Other than protecting the dam, of course.

Lemonade

2010-08-06T11:36:00.000-07:00

When Life hands you them lemons, better be some sugar and water in the bag, or that's gonna be some shitty lemonade...sayinsayin? word.

"Don't attack God until you see the whites of His eyes"

2010-08-06T10:49:00.000-07:00

I really get a kick out of these neo-progressives who've adopted this Gaia religion. Don't they realize to Mother Nature, we are just compost on the hoof? God just got bad press. The Bible, Koran,-They're like the Daily Mirror of spituality, without the pictures. All this sensationalism and sex, er, anti-sex, and a few kernels of truth. Still, if you read them, it's easy to see God has an edginess that can completely overshadow the whole Love thing, so I'd pick my battles carefully. I mean, that whole smite thing...heavy. At least Gaia takes the heat off God for natural disasters. I mean , if it's her planet...in for a penny, in for a pound, as they say.

Old Truth Number 2

2010-08-06T10:34:00.000-07:00

"...Teach a man to fish, and you feed him for life", but only if he likes fish, and you better buy him a fishing license while your at it. Tell him not to eat any of that 3-eyed shit comin' outa the bay, either. "Can I get bait with food stamps?"

Old Truths, Number 1

2010-08-06T10:28:00.000-07:00

"I cried when I had no shoes", and welfare gave me shoes. I cry now because I need pants.

Words

2010-07-23T17:59:00.000-07:00

"In the playground of the mind, words are the monkey bars."~~Ghalli Gi~~

2010-04-02T18:57:00.000-07:00

I put your pillow in the closet
today

The one you used
sometimes

It held your scent
for a long time
and even after that
I could always imagine it
until today

ex pillow sniffer

Paolo Cohuelo

2010-04-02T16:21:00.001-07:00

"Life is too short - or too long - to allow myself the luxury of living it badly." ( Why is this so easy to forget)

all or nothing at all. . . . .

2010-04-02T14:16:00.001-07:00

to love much is to risk much, and maybe to be hurt much, but I don't care to learn how to dole love out. It's always been all or nothing with me. " I know not what plans God may have for you. You are here now, and I am blessed. If The One sees fit to move you along, I pray I may be a light unto your path, and not a stumbling block. and I will offer praise for every single moment that was us. and on the far morn, when you hold your warm cup, and delight in that first light chill, pray give me a thought..."

bereft

2010-04-02T14:11:00.001-07:00

Why is it that I will keep close the pain of knowing you can't love me, rather than have nothing of you at all? Such a tortuous homage'; yet I won't ask God to deliver me. Being relieved of you, I would be in no way spared; I would simply find myself bereft...

truth

2010-04-02T14:09:00.001-07:00

God loves us, not for what we have or haven't done or been; He loves us because that's who He is.

sappy

2010-04-02T14:08:00.000-07:00

I thought I would miss her all the time

that every little turn of my day would have something

missing

until i realized that she'd been gone a long time already

making a polite effort to try and love me

and suddenly the half-assed reassurances she'd offered

started itching

I try and wash but it's like tree sap

When I figure out what will remove it,

I'll keep a supply of it on hand

for occasions like this.

the piano

2010-04-02T14:06:00.000-07:00

I find it easier each day

not to wonder

what you want me to do with the piano.

I put your pillow away in the closet

and have decided to ignore your gardening clothes

outside the back door

I wish your car wasn't such a bright yellow

and that seeing you drive down the road didn't

set me back a day every time

There are moments lately

where I genuinely wish you well and

hope you find peace

But they don't last very long.

the tree

2010-04-02T14:04:00.000-07:00

There is a hole in my yard

where a beautiful tree once grew

'til an ill wind tore it up by the root

I've spent much time

at the hole,and lamenting

the fruit that never got to ripen

It is the nature of holes

to slough in over time

leaving only a small

depression

I think I will plant flowers in it.

the artist

2010-04-02T13:50:00.000-07:00

Larry Bayard October 20, 2009 at 6:34pm

I am a blank canvas

again, today-

I stare fixedly

at the brush she holds

her palette rife

with pain

blacks and greys of every tint

she covers me with broad strokes-

unfinished

I am stacked with the others

wan dream

2010-04-02T13:47:00.001-07:00

I've walked thousands of miles

in my dreams

just to glimpse her

smiling . . .

afraid to say hello

afraid she would see me . . .

so close, I have been so close . . .

her surpise

always wakes me

Baba says:

2010-04-02T13:39:00.001-07:00

"May that which I give to you as joy, never be needed for understanding."~~Baba Rhum Rhaizin~~

remember

2010-03-25T17:44:00.001-07:00

“Remember when the best thing I could think of was you thinking of me? Remember when I would whisper your name until I fell asleep? Do you remember me?”

desperado

2010-03-25T17:43:00.001-07:00

I asked to come by

She said “no, I have to feng shue my inner child’s room.”

Oh, for a simpler time

when they simply had to wash thier hair

But then, I probly would have asked

“can I come over and we can wash our hair together?”

I wish desperado meant desperate

I could call myself desperado

I’d much rather think of myself

that way.

2010-03-07T13:31:00.000-08:00

I stood in front
of the mirror
for hours

Afraid to be alone
Afraid to be alone

do you know
that
feeling?

Prolly not.

2010-03-04T22:15:00.001-08:00

"A friend is someone who knows the song of your soul and sings it back to you when you have forgotten the words."~~Julie Morley~~

2010-01-21T17:48:00.001-08:00

"I am free to be me and you are frew to be you. It doesn't make sense, but it rhymes. Like most relationships." Aunty Agnes

2010-01-21T13:14:00.000-08:00

trod onward before you're trod under-Baba

2010-01-21T13:13:00.000-08:00

True colors... So hard to see. I thought hers were like those inside of me. But now, now the colors wound the soul. No colors just a dark dark hole......

2010-01-19T16:57:00.001-08:00

"At the end of the day, you stop looking for answers. It simply comes down to who you are." Baba Rhum Rhaizin

2010-01-19T16:28:00.003-08:00

"Tell yourself whatever you like, whatever'll get you through. Just know that time will come when you won't be able to ignore the truth of your heart. Count it a blessing, pain and all." Baba Rhum Rhaizin

2010-01-19T16:28:00.001-08:00

"Take the high road. It's never crowded. You do come across some of the most astounding people, however." Baba Rhum Rhaizin

2010-01-19T16:27:00.007-08:00

"God truly does have a sense of humor. He'll balance a bucket of humility above a door that I'm absolutely positive I need to go through." Baba Rhum Rhaizin

2010-01-19T16:27:00.003-08:00

"It's easy to be on a roll when yer wheels are greased." John Coaltrain

2010-01-19T16:26:00.001-08:00

"I feel like I have 5 aces-God dealt me four, and I'm the wild card." Jesus Tarjeta

2010-01-10T17:25:00.000-08:00

"Closure-a necessary evil." I. M. Dunnfor

2010-01-10T17:22:00.001-08:00

"The foundation for wisdom is many many poor choices, set in concrete." Baba Rhum Rhaizin

2010-01-07T16:04:00.000-08:00

"The now never becomes more important than when one feels there is nothing to look forward to." Baba Rhum Rhaizin, deathrattleashram.blogspot.com

2010-01-06T01:25:00.000-08:00

Were you to return to me, I know you would leave again. The reasons haven't changed. And now I possess the dinge that pain leaves,the dinge that no amount of newfound joy can quite mask. You would see it, and have to avert your gaze from me, and that would begin the end. I always truly believed love would conquer all; that a strong enough love would color every challenge do-able. Yet, though I loved you with every fibre, every thought, you found insurmountable fault. You let yourself out. So my precious little surmise did not hold true, and I no longer can believe in love conquering all. It is desperately grueling to go on without it.

2010-01-06T01:23:00.000-08:00

" Cry me a river, cry me a river, I cried a river over you" I almost have to laugh at how quickly I would suspend this demand. . .

2010-01-06T01:21:00.000-08:00

yearn, lament. . .yearn, lament. . .yearn, lament. . .I've simply got to find a new way to worship you. . .

2010-01-06T01:10:00.000-08:00

I saw an old picture of me and had a twinge of sadness for the man who is gone. . .I had an assuredness then, albeit naive, however none the less enjoyable. I think he went in the last bag of trash, when you left. I miss him.

2010-01-06T01:04:00.000-08:00

"I am most myself, when mindful of you."

2010-01-04T00:09:00.000-08:00

My favorite T-Shirt. Inspired by women I have loved.

deathrattleashram

2010-01-03T23:55:00.000-08:00

those to whom we avail ourselves, may not remain grateful for it. try as we might for an "otherwise", rejection remains plentiful. chin chin, little rabbit. Baba Rhum Rhaizin

deathrattleashram

Mike Rinta w/ Sly and the Family Stone.

Absalom

Thoughts

Aneed objectified is a need met.~~Ghalli Gi~~

Thoreau

enlighten-up!!

incrementals

There is enough

change/ results

Great Quote

multi-faceted or mentally fractured

The Flood Syndrome

Lemonade

"Don't attack God until you see the whites of His eyes"

Old Truth Number 2

Old Truths, Number 1

Words

Paolo Cohuelo

all or nothing at all. . . . .

bereft

truth

sappy

the piano

the tree

the artist

wan dream

Baba says:

remember

desperado

deathrattleashram

Aneed objectified is a need met.Ghalli Gi